Its been too long
I have done it wrong.
and i just want it all to change.

eugene and i have been together for 27 months today(: its been a hell of a rollercoaster ride, but at the end of it all, i know i will be safe. its just another 2 years more cheryl. someday will eventually come. you just have to hang in there. i cant wait to come home! :D

exams are over and i guess it went okay, not good, just okay.. i hope i do fine): anyhow, went shopping today at carousel but i only bought one item! ): its a very pretty wool top, im so sad i can never wear it in sg ):


it was shopping day with cherry today and i had fun(: we camwhored as usual cos it was dress up day for us:) i love the feeling of "after-exams" its just... like bliss. nessa and pinkie are coming in another three days! i cant wait! :):) then we are going monkey mia and before i know it, i will be right back where i belong(:

oh, some peektures from our management group presentation :) which we got HD HEHE!




i love my bangs and i decided i shall keep it just for a while (:


i m only one; but still i m one.
i cannot do everything, but still i can do something.
i will not refuse to do something i can do.

exams are hereeee. good luck cheryl!!! :)
i am not well prepared for the exam's this trimester, but also, for some weird reason, i was not as worried as before. SIGH.. i should go study. NOW.

oh, and i have this big fat urge for online shopping, now is SO not the time.
and after exams il post pictures of mgmt group presentation! :) i think my mgmt group rocks (:


while jogging, this person shouted at me, "go back to china!"

wth?!


no idea if i have done it before, but i m so horribly bored i just have to do something and that doesnt include studying... and becuase i m in such a crummy mood, i may have cryptic, annoying answers that il probably regret writing. hahahah (and i realise how much i type that, when i m not even smiling), its amazing.

1. What age do you wish to marry?
uhm, 25 maybe? i wanna look young and pretty in wedding photos please. LOL
2. What you want the most right now ?
A. to go home
B. D average for exams
C. to be happy
3. What do you want to be in your next life ?
the same. i think.
4. Do you think you have confident ?
it depends on how i feel, look, dress on that particular day. so it varies from time to time... =/
5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true , what would it be ?
right now, i really have no idea. prolly something that borders on eternal happiness. lol
6. What are you afraid to lose now ?
many many many things.
7. Do you believe in eternal love?
yea, you have to believe in certain stuff for the world to be a better place(:
8. If someone you love hurt you, how will you feel?
heartbroken. obviously.
9. How would you spend 200 bucks ?
shopping. retail theraphy at its best, though 200 may only make me a LITTLE bit happier =( i m being a complete brat today, so the answers arent really reliable.
10 . What are the requirement(s) that you yearn from the other half ?
love. care. fun. trust. in no particular order.
11.Which type of person you hate most ?
uh, i have never really hated someone, the closest i think i got to hate was probably myself. the rest just, annoy me.
12. So you cherish every of your friendship ?
i wish i could say yes, but they are hard to hold on to sometimes, and i feel like a bitch for not trying.
13. Do you believe in God ?
yea, and i wished someone believed in me
14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life ?
right now, probably good grades, and money to be able to go home often(:
15. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend ?
its not a need, but i am satisfied with what i have(:
16. What do you want your friends to be like ?
i want them to be like yokeleng, silin, rachel, carol, nessa, xiaoting, zy, and many many more just that i m too lazy to type them down because they are everything i like (:
17. What are the things that i will think of ?
according to many people, i dont think very much.
18. What is your favourite hobby ?
shopping, definitely. sleeping probably comes a close second. being on the phone too, expensive hobby though these days...
19. If you're feeling low one day , who will you go to ?
i am, trying to go to more people nowadays.
20.what do you do when you are bored?
one of my hobbies- depends on whether i have the money.

and when i realised why i was feeling crummy, it made me stop and slap myself.
mannnn, go sleeeeeeep.
and, i m completely addicted to the song on esther's blog. i keep going there just to listen to it.

oh on a side note, when i told eugene "brb" on msn, he said i dont have to come back!!! wails!!! (note to you: be nice to me if u want me to blog about you. HAHAHAHA=P )


okay, i m glad at least silin likes my shoes. which is SOOO not weird i think they are really cute. ROARRR! hahahaha. i dont care, i have a style that is not so.. common. (trying to desperately prove i m not strange here. lollll) andddd, i hate sportsgirl. there is never a time that i go in, without wanting anything when i go out... sheeshh. i need to save money. nessa and pinkie are about to come realllllyyy soon, and i m not about to be a poor sad girl and watch them shop. LOL.

anyway, exam revision is so not going very well, in fact, its not going well at all. i m a little distracted. about what? i have absolutely no idea. sigh): oh wellll...

dinner time, i m blogging rubbish these days.


It has definitely been a very productive few days... must be the impending exams that are starting to freak me out.. Well, i managed to finish my entire long long list of things that i have to do, but whether i did well for them or not is a different story altogether... oh wells. i really did enjoy doing my multimedia webpage though! Admittedly staring at html codes for 3 days and 3 nights is REALLYYY eye boggling, but i kinda liked it. and rachel was so nice to make a gif file for me and gave me brilliant websites to make my webpage super pretty HEEE (: managment oral presentation is on thursday omggg! haha. okay, i can finally start exam revision tomorrow, i certainly hope i have enough time though... one week for four subjects?!?! sounds rather impossible. sheesh.

by the way, i want these keds. give me now!! ):
ohh, and if anyone sees them around can tell meeeee?? i REALLY WANNA GET ITTT :D



i want theseeeee ): i think they look super cute please !!


it is amazing how much 24 hours can do to your mood.
seriously.

there comes a period of time, where you just feel like you need to do something and not be judged. then there is the time when you are honestly feel so happy for someone, but there is just this weird feeling in your stomach, wishing that it was you instead. i want to be someone that i know, i want to be fully aware of whats right and wrong, whats to be done and whats not. i just really want to be sure. The feeling of knowing what you do is fine and worthy is something unexplainable, but deep inside you know what it is. there is many many things worth fighting for i guess, but what if you are too tired to keep up. what if you have to make a choice? in all my dreams, i want to be loved and pampered and showered with gifts, except i dont think they are just dreams. i think they are stronger, i think they are desires. i think that deep inside i am a material girl. but i dont want to be one as well. thats what makes thing so confusing. i wonder if i am the one waiting, and what exactly am i waiting for. i wonder how it would be to live life my own way. i think keeping myself happy is a chore, an expensive expensive chore.

okay, stop cheryl.
stop it already.
i am going to do situps until i hurt so i dont think about all the rubbish that comes to my head once i am in a crummy mood.

i feel like going to the beach.
alone.

i need to study.
i need to focus.
i need the discipline to stop eating junk.

actually, i think i just need you.


the dying cheryl has been given a new lease of life.
i went on a shopping spree today, supposedly to just buy mom a present. but ended up spending like 140bucks in just under 3 hours. HAHAHA! :D
plus, i have new hair - BANGS! and i love them so.

okay, back to work. i should channel my happiness into something productive, like management. (:

hee!-beams!


im dying.
slowly but surely.

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